Sometimes there are circumstances that shaped to who we are now.
Everybody has to come up with a decision, and with that decision, we must stand firm.
I dunno how can I really describe the pain inside me now. It's just that I know I'm feeling normal, being hurt, and painful inside. I prefer not to talk to anyone my situation right now, so I wrote here for someday purposes. I wanna read this post again, maybe for a couple of months from now. I want to feel now what will I feel reading this post in the future.
Errors are to be made. Just like with this post. I am not a person whose gonna check out for all the words or spelling. I'm human, I want to make mistakes for me to grow.
About 2 weeks ago, I made a big decision. I have gathered all my strength to out myself together and fix it up. To stand on my own and build walls around me. I made a promise to myself, that no one, no individual could ever hurt me again in whatever aspect.
Moving on is really hard, but after this stage will be acceptance and learning to start again. This time, I won't tell anyone about my past, I want to share now the bright side of my life. The future.
I will be a woman whose strong enough with the Mighty One with me. I pray that those people who made me inspired by difficulties would also find faith to believe that life will get tired of pain. I dunno when, but one thing for sure that'll come.
I just wanna thank him, for those moments that we've shared, I had no regret, I regret those part that I wasted my time with him, maybe if I had just talk more than less we haven't made up this mess. I had a lot of maybe's in mind, but the only thing sure is I am alone now. I am with my shadow and light, I am who I am and I gotta learn how to survive each day and make it as challenging as possible.
